I’m no longer interested in pain. it doesn’t inspire me, it doesn’t motivate me, I don’t think it’s a beautiful thing. I’ve spent too long making suffering a part of my personality
I just got an email from my Rabbi saying that tomorrow during during Hebrew school, they’re calling the police for security and that they’re going to add more security to the temple. in addition the regular religious school, there’s a meeting in the afternoon for the teenagers if we want to come and just talk.
do you know how fucked up this is? that my temple, who does tons of charity and if full of some of the kindest people i know, needs this protection? because some bigoted gunman could burst through the doors at any second? we don’t even live close to the shooting - we’re many sates away - but we’re still scared because this isn’t a one time thing.
